Chapter 0202
Chapter 0202
Everything had been so perfect. I had felt so happy, like I was in a heavenly state almost. Looking forward to a day in bed with Bailey, showing her how perfect we were together, and now we were in this mess... not just a mess, but I feared it could be the end. I rushed after Bailey, catching myself on the corner of the bed as I did, stumbling, and as I steadied myself she was already out of the door. Despite the fact I was naked, I rushed down the corridor of my home after her. So desperate to fix the situation we found ourselves in.
"Bailey, please!" I called after her, so desperate to try and fix this. Yet she didn't so much as turn back. She was focused on making her escape. Escaping me. Her words had hurt. No. I wasn't her mate. But, I so desperately wished I could be. It had been playing on my mind...
Yet, after all of this, I feared I may never be. She seemed to take my concern as an attempt for control. And that was never what it was. I know Bailey has had her former fated mate trying to control her for far too long - a true battle for dominance, one I think right now she was winning. But I would never tell her what to do. I know she is independent and more than capable of taking care of herself, but it didn't stop me worrying about her.
And the fact her father and her Alpha were expecting her to attend the wedding of her former fated mate made no sense to me. The look upon her face when her dad had told her what was expected of her, had said it all to me. She did not feel comfortable at the request... it filled with her dread and fear, that had been evident in her expression. She still feared the man, and I did not want her going there in case he harmed her. Was I in the wrong for thinking that? Was I wrong in wanting to protect the woman I loved?
But, my request for her not to go was never me trying to control her, and I hate that she saw it like that. I had hoped that she might see it as a suggestion more than an order... seeing that she had an alternative. She didn't have to do what they were asking her if she didn't want to. If she was scared she shouldn't have to agree. I don't know now... I seem to have messed this up, and Bailey seems to be unwilling to talk things through.
I heard the front door slam as I made my way down the corridor, and I knew then I was too late. My whole body sagging against the wall, Zion whimpering in my mind at the potential loss of the woman we were both falling for. No, the woman we had fallen for. I may have been fighting it, but there was no denying it, I loved her.
I loved her with all of me, and I wanted to be with her. I had never expected to feel love again, but it had come so unexpectedly out of the blue, it had blown me away. Bailey was so perfect... so sweet... and she seemed to understand me... making me smile so easily... She was beginning to become our world, that of me and my wolf, without even intending for her too, and now we were looking like we were alone. I wasn't sure what to do. I felt broken again...
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filled me with fear. I truly don't know if I could manage without her. She may have only been in our pack a short time, but she had already established a place within my heart... my life... and without her there, I don't know how I was meant to carry on. I was torn. Did go to her
and try to fix this, or did I give her the space she seemed to have been
craving?
I knew she was angry... the thing was, I don't even think I could ask anybody. Because nobody knew I was falling for her. Nobody knew of this mess... Marc knew there was likely something between us, but I couldn't ask his advice, he was spending time with his mate. I couldn't spoil the time he was enjoying with his new mate.
No, this was my doing. I quickly walked back to my room, and picked up some shorts from my wardrobe, slipping them on, my room smelling so heavily of Bailey... not just her... but our scents combined... and the thought of what I could have risked made my heart drop as I rushed toward her room.
I knocked heavily on the door. "Bailey?" I called when she didn't answer.
"Asher, I do not want to talk. I just
need some time, please." She replied, without even opening the door, and my heart felt like it was being torn in two. "I will be headed back to my pack tomorrow ready for the wedding, with Morgan. I will speak with you when I return." she added, and her words only hurt me more. She couldn't leave it like this. Not now. Not after everything....
"Bailey, please. Don't leave it like this." I urged her. "You said I wasn't your mate, and no, I'm not. That doesn't mean I wouldn't like to be, one day. admitted through the door to her, unsure why I was telling her that. "I wanted to mark you earlier. So did Zion. I don't think I would ever have imagined that happening after losing Isla, but it is true. You brought a light to my life I didn't expect. I can't lose that. Please, let me know we will be okay, Bailey?"
But, all I could hear behind the door was sobbing, and it broke my heart, because I think this was all on me...