Chapter 74 – Getting over what Fiona did
Anthony POV
I buried myself in the work I had to attend to in my studies as I sighed and reviewed every document that required my attention.
Tomorrow was a big day for me because I was going to be defending a huge foreign client in court so I needed to make sure that all the evidence was intact.
Ignoring Fiona since we came back home hasn’t been easy. What she did was something that hurt me deeply and it was going to take multiple I’m sorry to wipe that scene off my mind.
“Her darling aren’t you coming to bed” I heard Fiona’s voice behind me with her hands on my shoulders, trying to massage me but I took her hands off my shoulders instantly.
“Go to bed. I won’t be joining you early today” I said coldly, not sparing her a glance.
“Please can we talk,” she said, her voice low
“I’m busy and can’t talk right now,” I said, my eyes fixed on the papers in front of me.Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.
“Anthony I know I messed up and I’m sorry about what_”
“I said I don’t want to talk about it” I talked, hitting my hand which was already in a fist on the table as I stared daggers
She looked at me startled as she stood frozen. I dropped the pen as I abruptly pushed the chair backward forcefully and walked round the table, deciding to leave the office.
I just couldn’t look at Fiona, at least not for now. Whenever I look at her, I remember what transpired today at Nicholas’s house and I can’t help but blame myself for letting things get this far.
“Anthony please you’re breaking my heart” I paused in my tracks as I heard those words
“Breaking your heart? Fiona, you betrayed and hurt me again. I trusted you, Fiona. I trusted you to the extent you knew the code of the safe where I kept that contract. I trusted you to the extent I told you all about Monica and Nicholas and yet you stabbed me in the back and gave Greg that contract paper” I said, my heart splitting into halves as I remembered what she did.
“I’m sorry”
“Please don’t. Don’t say sorry because I’m tired of hearing it. I don’t want to hear any more sorries” I said, my voice sharp and echoing in the hallway.
“I did it because of you Anthony. I was scared. Greg threatened to kill you and hurt me and I didn’t want that. I didn’t want anything to happen to you. Please understand me, Anthony”
Fiona’s shaking voice uttered as tears began gathering in her eyes it hurt me to see her like this but I was pissed by what she had done.
“Do you know the painful fact about what you did? The part where you deceived me. The part where you lied to me Fiona” I said, speaking from a hurt of pain and disappointment.
“I didn’t lie to you, Anthony. I never lied to you”, she said, defending herself.
“Yes, you lied Fiona. You told me that Greg sent you out of the house because he found out you were pregnant but the actual truth was that he let you go so he could use you against me, Monica, and Nicholas”
“Anthony please let’s not argue over this. It’s all in the past please” Fiona uttered sadly, her eyes becoming puffy.
“That’s the problem, Fiona… I can’t seem to forget and I don’t know why” I said, tears slowly gathering in my eyes.
“Anthony forgive me, please. I know I hurt you and deceived you but I promise not to ever do it again” Fiona begged as she tried to take my hand in her but I removed my hands immediately.
“you once hurt me like this Fiona. Yes, back then when you broke up with me for no reason and left me with no explanation. That was the first time you shattered me into unmendable pieces but thankfully, I regained myself. Now you are doing it again. You hurt me by stabbing me in the back. How could you Fiona, I trusted you. I was finally happy to be with my first love but never knew that Greg was just using you to get to me”
Fiona began sobbing as she used her hand to cover the noise coming out of her mouth and I watched her, pain engulfing my heart. I wanted to hold her and comfort her but I still can’t get past what she did.
This is one of the reasons I and Nicholas never trust anyone but ourselves and each other. I trusted Fiona to the extent that I could bet a million dollars for her.
Realizing that someone you trust is working with your enemy brings another kind of pain, sadness, and insecurity around that person.
I never for once doubted her. I was so happy when I found out she was pregnant. I had my suspicions about Greg letting her go that easily but I just threw the thought aside.
“What would I have done Anthony? I had no choice but to do what Greg wanted.”
“You had a choice, Fiona. You had a choice to tell me what you know. You had a choice of talking to me and confessing everything to me but you decided to do things on your own. For once in your life Fiona, stop trying to do things on your own. Always learn to ask for help and talk to those around you. We can’t function alone and that’s why we’re blessed with people who love us, people who love you Fiona like me, like Monica”
“I’m sorry Anthony and I know I messed up but please stop pushing me away. Stop avoiding me. Let’s just forget about what happened please” Fiona said, her hands clenching her shirt as she began sobbing again
Fiona’s action was so unexpected and hurtful. Her actions were going to take a lot of time before they left my mind. I don’t think it’s a good idea to remain with a person that I couldn’t trust. Her actions had broken any trust I had for her.
The best she would have done was tell me what was going on but she kept it to herself and caused havoc between Nicholas and me.
“I’m sorry Fiona but I’m gonna need more time,” I said as I left her in the hallway and walked into one of the guest rooms so I could sleep. I just didn’t want to be anywhere close to her.