My Visions His Reality

Chapter 53

For as long as I can remember, I have only seen my parents madly in love with each other. Sure, they had small outbursts and fights here and there, but on the whole, they were as loving as a couple could be.

I can’t stress enough the fact that their compatibility affected me and my siblings. We had experienced love firsthand in our home which immediately made the three of us believe in it.

Just like how I feel up believing in love, maybe the same worked for Harper, but in a different way. It would be pretty easy for me to say that he should have learned from their mistakes and a path of his own.

For once, if I could put myself in his perspective, I think I could understand where he was coming from. He didn’t know any better, he never knew things could be any different than his parents or his grandparents.

He was a misguided teen who had responsibilities of a whole pack thrust upon him from a very young age. He grew up believing that his life with his mate would be more than difficult. I can only imagine how frightened he must have been when he found out that I was his mate. He knew having me as a mate only meant more complications, which he tried to avoid in his twisted ways.

I could understand where he was coming from if I let go of everything for a few seconds and think everything from his perspective.

But that didn’t mean that it made everything alright. I could explain the situation from different angles and excuse his behavior using various arguments but nothing could make me forget what he did.

Well, he wanted to hurt me and his mission was now accomplished.

I wanted to forgive him and let everything go as I looked into his soft green eyes, but that wouldn’t be right. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I let the bond work against me. I wouldn’t let it blind me as it has done before on countless occasions.

I just couldn’t forgive him, not right now, at least. The wound was too fresh.

And that’s exactly what I told him. I looked into his green eyes, the very same eyes I had fallen in love with, and told him,” I just can’t let go of everything that has happened, Harper.”

My heart hurt because his face fell as soon as I said those words but I had to strengthen myself. I knew I would feel this way and I was prepared for it. It was high time that I put myself before the bond between us.

“If the child is yours, Harper, I don’t think,” I took a deep breath and ran a frustrated hand through my hair,” I don’t think-”

“I understand!” He gulped and looked down, his muscles tensing at my words. “I think it would be best if Natalie took a paternity test.”

I knew what was Harper trying to do. He was desperate and was just grasping for straws now. Anything he could find that could still salvage him.

But that was the thing, I had no idea if we were still salvageable. I just didn’t have the heart to tell him that.

Instead, I said, “I think so too.”

But call it a gut feeling or whatever, I knew what the result was going to be.

I could feel the coolness of the metal bench seep into my bare thighs. I wouldn’t have worn a short skirt if I had known the hospital would have such uncomfortable seats.

My gaze involuntarily moved from person to person in the small waiting room. Expectant mothers smiling and chatting with each other and other women present for their regular checkups. I was pretty sure none of their reasons for coming to the hospital was half as entertaining or dramatic as mine. Certainly, none of them had come to the hospital with their ex–best friend and ex–boyfriend to see if they had conceived a baby together.

Honestly, I had no idea what I was doing here!

I shifted uncomfortably at the thought. I thought if I occupied my mind with something else, the irony and bitterness of the situation wouldn’t

haunt me.

I sneaked a look at the two people sitting across from me and couldn’t help but wonder how drastically our world had changed in such a short period.

I hadn’t said a word to either of them since I had entered the room. Me and Harper had decided yesterday that it would be a good idea to not disclose anything to anyone about what had happened. So, Samantha and Aiden had no idea what kind of storm was brewing right under their

noses. Moreover, they were new mates and I didn’t want to trouble them with everything that had been happening.

We had decided that we would only disclose the pregnancy to Harper’s parents and only if the baby was Harper’s. We hadn’t exactly planned anything because I just wanted to leave as soon as possible. I couldn’t handle looking at either of them.

So, all in all, nobody knew that the three of us were sitting in the waiting room of a hospital, eagerly waiting for our appointment, or rather Natalie’s appointment.

A nurse walked opened the door and slipped inside the room. She held a clipboard in her hand and had been calling out the names of people to check in for their appointments. She once again looked at the clipboard and called out for Natalic.

My thought process halted and I felt sweat form in various parts of my body. This was it, I guess.

Natalie and Harper both stood up from their respective seats and the nurse smiled at them. “The doctor will see you both in a couple of minutes. Go down the hall and step inside the second door from left.”

For the first time since I entered the room, I looked both of them in the eye, only to find both of them looking at me, gauging my reaction. Looking at the both of them together, ready to go for the paternity test made me realize I wasn’t exactly needed here at this moment.

They both looked like shit and I took pleasure in seeing them like this. I mean, I shouldn’t have, but I did. Seeing them distraught and out of focus, made me happy because they had done the same thing with me.

Natalie opened her mouth to say something but before she could, Harper gave me a subtle nod and walked away in the direction of the room they were asked to go to.

I released a deep breath as I watched the both of them disappear down the bend in the hall. I just couldn’t bear to look at either of them and yet, here I was waiting for their paternity test.

Again, what the fuck am I doing here?!

My weary gaze moved again from person to person and I recognized several people from the pack. They tried more to seek my eyes and gave me subtle nods or bows as a form of respect for their future Luna.NôvelDrama.Org (C) content.

Future Luna?! I scoffed at the thought.

I wonder how the pack would feel when they came to know that their alpha had impregnated another, she–wolf, when their Luna was all fine and dandy.

That was exactly why we had decided to keep this matter a secret. It wouldn’t do any good to publicize this situation before knowing any of the facts. Otherwise, it would be full of chaos.

Well, that’s what the future alpha thinks about it anyway!

I pulled out my phone from my jeans pocket and started playing with it. Anything that could not make me think about anything would be a

welcome entertainment.

“Zara? What are you doing here?”

My phone slipped from my hands at the sound of the familiar voice.