The Beast's Possession

**Bane

pov**

The things I was feeling, they were tearing me apart. No one had warned me about something like this being possible.

Growing up, I learned to be spiteful and bitter. Once, the same as any other kid, I enjoyed my life and childhood, but it changed and I couldn't pinpoint why exactly. But now, I had so much to lose. Even the woman who gazed at me with pity and hatred at the same time... I was selfish, that much I knew.

But how could I let go if she was the first one in so long who made me feel? I had been numb for so long, I clawed at each opportunity to feel something, anything...

It didn't matter if it was anger, hatred, sadness or a new emotion - happiness, I wanted it all. I became greedy and so damn selfish, I didn't know how to let go. Zion looked at me in horror. I knew from the moment he sent me that text that he was trying to teach me a lesson, and damn, did he teach me one. "Bane, we should get you checked out. I can call the doctor," Zion muttered, still listening to my warnings and keeping a safe distance.

I shook my head. "No, she's waiting for me home."

Home... I forgot the last time I had addressed a building as home. Maybe because it wasn't the brick and wood that made it home, maybe it was the person. "You'll bleed out before you reach the damn home," Zion argued.

I could feel the darkness expand in my chest. It fought every move I took, every decision I made. It spread through my veins and pulled me down in the abyss to take control of the body it called useless.

"I need to get out of here, it's fighting me," I gasped the words as I started limping towards the office door.

"Bane, she won't be safe if you go back now," Zion shouted after me.

Little did he know she was safe. She would be.

I didn't give a damn how much the darkness tried to bring me down and act on my behalf, I would fight it till I took my last breath if that meant I could keep her safe.

For the first time in forever, I had someone waiting for me to come home. She said it herself, Aife claimed she wouldn't sleep until I would return and lay beside her.

Recalling her statement, I limped out of the building and wondered what had I done to deserve her kindness and acceptance of a vicious beast such as myself.

*You don't deserve her. You don't deserve her kindness and her heart. Don't fool yourself, you know she wants nothing to do with you. She acts nice and smiles at your face while she's hiding a knife behind her back.*

The words hit me hard. They cut so deep, I fell to my knees and fought myself to breathe. My lungs were on fire, they refused to accept any oxygen I was forcing inside them.

*Bane, naive, stupid, boy Bane. You know I'm right. Deep down, you know I am, you're just too big of a coward to admit it to yourself.*noveldrama

I ignored the voice. It knew nothing about me, even less about Aife and her kind nature. It had no right to toss such statements and accuse someone of being someone they weren't.

Aife wasn't a traitor. I had hurt her so much, I had taken everything she ever had, and she still showed me kindness.

She was above us all. In a word, filled with monsters and beasts, she was a godly creature.

*A godly creature as you describe her wouldn't waste her time with trash like you.*

"You know nothing about her," I finally broke and spat back as I tried to get back to my feet, fighting the darkness that wanted me to remain in the same position.

*I know plenty of things. She was happy and you took her happiness. She was innocent and you took her innocence. I'm surprised a savage such as you hasn't gone all the way yet, but I'm sure time will come soon. Also, I know she used to have a beautiful family and pack that loved her. You took that from her too. How dare you act so high and mighty? How dare you think of her as anything more than another victim? Bane, you are so delusional. Even I pity you for your stupidity.*

I wanted it to go. I wanted it to leave me and return where it came from.

For years, I have done nothing but fought it. Every day, the battle became more difficult and the darkness did nothing but thrive the more I struggled.

It enjoyed my misery, my struggle to take the upper hand.

But now, even while I found it hard to come to terms with the thought, due to my own cruelty, I had found a reason to resist, a reason to keep fighting.

By some miracle, I managed to get back to my feet and started walking towards home. The only thought that pushed me forward was that she was waiting for me.

I refused to mess up something I had wanted my entire life. Just for once, I wanted to feel like I mattered for someone enough to want to see me.

I bent myself so many times for Milly to show me that she cared, but she never truly did. I loved that woman with all my heart, but maybe Zion was right and she never really loved me.

Or perhaps she didn't know how to. The same as she didn't have any idea how to care about anyone but herself.

I gave her the world, all of me, and she tossed my effort in the nearest trash can whenever she had a chance.

Aife was different. I had wronged her over and over again, and she still cared. She really cared for me. At least I thought so.

*Give her time to learn how to hate you. Knowing how you are, it won't take long. Enjoy the imaginary happiness while it lasts, Bane. Every fairytale comes to an end and yours will fade long before it starts.* "Jokes on you, she already hates me," I muttered as I neared the house.

The lights in the living room were on, so I knew she kept her promise and sat on the living room couch, waiting for my arrival.

I sounded like a dying seal as I forced myself to move faster and reach the door sooner. Something kept pulling me towards her, I wasn't sure what it was, but the pull was hard to ignore.

Opening the door, I instantly noticed her on the couch. Aife had wrapped herself in a blanket and fallen asleep.

As much as I wanted to scoop her in my arms and carry her to the bedroom, I knew it was better if I didn't.

Unless she expressed that she wanted to sleep in the bedroom, I wouldn't act. Baby steps, I had to take them small and careful if I wanted to show her how much I was trying. *Your best has never been enough, what makes you think it will be any different with her?*